The Smallest Things

Each day I try to be positive about something.  Some days it's easy, other days not so easy.  Sometimes it just feels as though there is not a single thing to be happy about....I hate those days because, in reality, there is so much to be positive about and thankful for.

 Life has a way of knocking us down at times, taking the wind out of our sails, creating a darkness......there have been times when I didn't believe I would go on, I didn't believe I would smile or be happy.  I am so thankful that I have always gotten back up and moved forward.

What is it that ultimately gets me up and going?  It is the smallest, most seemingly insignificant things that make my heart sing.  Scarlett announced that her name is Scarlett Kathi the other night.  This made me happy in my turmoil.  As I was hugging Scarlett good bye I saw Calvin sitting and waiting in his high chair with his arms open wide for a hug from me and his lips puckered for a kiss good bye.  Oliver watching and smiling.  In that moment in time, my heart was full, I had no room for turmoil or sadness.

Last week was a bad week, there are some difficulties ahead for me.  Some situations that created dark thoughts, situations that seemed impossible presented themselves to me.   My typical way during these bad times is to have a day of being sullen and silent, a day of ranting and lashing out, a day of complaining (I prefer to refer to this as venting).  I should skip the ranting and lashing out and go straight to venting....lashing out does not solve anything, it creates more difficulty.  This is can be a hard lesson.  I was lucky.

The sun will rise despite our problems and the sun will set on our problems.  We have to choose how we will handle our problems and what is important.  Worry takes up too much space and time.  I have to continue learning to let it go.....just realize that the sun will rise and the sun will set, remember the important things and solve the problems in a logical, focused way.

Day 64 of 365

Look for positive & Love the smallest moments......K