No Replay, No Rewind.....

Do you have regrets in life?  Think about it....if you wanted to could you change whatever it is you regret?  Many times in life we make bad choices, say harsh words or leave something undone or hanging.  Often, if we choose we can go back and "fix" it, when that regret involves someone we have lost there is no fixing, no taking back, no changing it.  That is a truly helpless feeling.  I consider myself fortunate that I don't have big regrets and I've been able to reconcile my feelings.....I hate to think of how I would feel if I had big regrets after losing Steve, my mom or my dad.  

Do you always think there is plenty of time or that you'll take care of that later?  What if later doesn't come?  That can become a very sad reality much to our surprise.

I try each day to ground myself and think about what is important, what can I let go, if I argue with him/her and leave is that how I want to leave, and most importantly that there are no rewinds.  This is not easy but it is important to me.  I am thankful every day that I do not have regrets in my time with Steve, at least nothing that wasn't resolved.  Living with the enormity of the loss AND with regrets would change the road through grief...perhaps make it longer, more angry.

Each morning stop and think.....Life IS short, Time IS fast, there are NO replays and NO rewinds.  Love your time, love yourself and love those who are important to you.

Making these life changes is not easy, it takes a lot of my effort, it is tiring, it has caused me to step back from some things in my life.  I cannot be all things to all people but I can be important to some people and that is where I must put my effort.  Perhaps this quest will become easier, I hope so as it often leaves me exhausted.  I cannot back down now, if you think I've forgotten you, I haven't, I have pulled in to become a better person, learning my limits and I cannot stop now.

My hope is that just one person finds comfort or learns from my words......

I hope to never have a regret with any of these people.....

Day 16 of 365.

Be Happy......K