So Sad You Are Missing Out

I have a hard time thinking about the things Steve is missing.....does it matter once you are gone?  Do you have an awareness of what you have missed?  Does it bother me so much because I am here and involved....is it guilt that causes this feeling?

I watch my beautiful Maddie preparing to attend the Military Ball last night with her friend from Christian Brothers Academy.  Would Steve mind missing this?  Would he care?  I care that he is missing this, Maddie cares that he isn't here.   We go to the house for pictures all the moms and dads are there taking pictures, it's always me and my kids at all these events.  I am so thankful to be there but so sad Steve isn't.  I like to believe he is watching over us.

Todd graduated from high school in 2011, Todd has attended his prom and senior gala.....Steve would have been proud seeing Todd on stage at Proctor's receiving his diploma.

I know Steve would have loved teaching the kids to drive.  He was always calm when teaching Jason & Becky.  I was always nervous, the kids said I made them nervous :)  He would have been calm.  Now Todd and Maddie have their licenses and it's everyday business....Steve would have liked that.

Maddie will graduate in June, she has gone to her junior prom, now the Military Ball and later her senior gala.  Maddie will be going away to college, no family road trip to take her to college for Steve.

These events are just the tip of the iceberg....college graduations, first "real" jobs, weddings, family vacations, grandchildren.....When Steve died we had 3 grandchildren, now that has grown to 7.  Only 3 of my beloved sweeties even knew Grampa Steve....each year the reality of his physical presence dwindles a little more, so we the keepers of his legacy must carry on for those who never knew him or barely remember him.

This is our last family photo taken at the Riverbanks Zoo in South Carolina, June 2007.....seems so very long ago.  How Todd & Maddie have changed.....how time has marched on, how we have gone on.  Always remembering, always missing, always loving.

Day 21 of 365
Carry on.....K