"There is so much I wish I could say to you. I now realize just how big a part of my world you were....there is a huge hole in my life and my heart. I wish every second, every minute, every hour that you were still here and truly cannot fathom that you are not. I watch for signs that you are with me. I heard you call my name the night after you died at 3:00 a.m. like you had for the 6 previous nights.
My heart breaks when I think of what you will miss. I miss you so much and it hurts so much...,my heart aches constantly. Will it ever stop?
You were so strong and so brave through everything. You fought so hard and suffered so much. I hope you forgive the impatience I sometimes showed.....I would have done anything to help you. I did my best. Was it good enough??
I love you, I long to hear you say 'happy Friday' or 'what's up kiddo'.
We had so many plans....our perimeter of the U.S. motorcycle ride. It is almost the time when we could have done that. Why do we always say later.....later won't come for us.
Vast emptiness is what I see so often. I go through the motions, I laugh, I smile, I work, but I'm really a shell right now, a very fragile and sad little shell.
"You've traveled so far
The wind in your face
You're thinking you've found
The one special place
Where all of your dreams
Will walk out in line
And follow the course
You've made in your mind
Hey, it isn't gonna be that way
It isn't gonna be, that way ...."
The wind in your face
You're thinking you've found
The one special place
Where all of your dreams
Will walk out in line
And follow the course
You've made in your mind
Hey, it isn't gonna be that way
It isn't gonna be, that way ...."
Day 5 of 365...
Be good to yourself.....K
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